HATE MAIL

I HATE YOU. I AM WRITING THIS SO I CAN SAY "I HATE YOU" WITHOUT ANY HESITATION NOR THE USUAL PREAMBLES.

I HATE YOU. i hate that you don't notice how my eyes go all vague and glassy when we meet in the halls. i hate it that you don't know anything about me, and i, about you. i hate it that we still have to conform to the world at large, or at least you still do, hence we keep away. i hate it that you long for someone else, when i'm here at your beck and call. i hate it that we don't talk nor walk in the same dimension, although we are of the same world, we are at the opposite poles.
i hate you. i hate you. i hate you because you let me lose my wits when you're about.
i hate you when i lose my train of thought and eloquence when you come near, and i'm left standing looking like a numbskull.

I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. i hate you because i don't want to feel this way.
i don't want to spend every day in limbo, with you as my sole companion. i hate you since you took my heart away from me and never gave it back. i hate you because whatever i do, i cannot hate you, not the way i want to. i hate you since whatever may happen i still want you and i still believe in you, despite and inspite of what you are and what you want.

I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. i hate you because i have a relationship with you in my head, nevermind that it's one-sided.

i hate you with a passion and yet my passion is you.

i hate you because no matter how much i say that i would hate you from the bottom of my heart, it would all be for naught.
you've already taken my heart and there's really nowhere left that my hate would come from.
i guess you've figured that out when you took it, and i would hate you for that, if i could have.